Confused By Tenderness
Sometimes, I lay awake at night in my head Confused to the emotion that tend to invade me every-time I want to get some zzzzzzzzz. I sure you ladies can relate to this. Thanks for Reading!
Confused on what to do next, where will this road lead me since my travels its been filled with so many swift concepts. Some, I can readily handle and those that leave me shifting each foot over a steep ledge in search of a much needed steady view. If, I escape and run, where do I hide? I will get caught, no one can out run its grasp forever, it's overwhelming, I must and I will now accept the hard truth......
I'am not CRAZY , perhaps just a little CONFUSED about the loose screws that trace me every time I make a move. There it goes again the tenderness of your touch, the warm sweet echos of warm brown sugar intoxicate me. Where is this all coming from, I'm so CONFUSED.
Focus, girl focus I chant to myself, I still have a journey on a road I've never been down before and the scary thing is I don't know what awaits?
Where, will I be ten years, hell even ten minutes from now, when will I be over these trying times? Should I just give up trying? Pain, you were never invited, yet your presence in my life is clear. Just when I want to let go and let it all fade away, the sweet smell of your essences over powers me, I seek you out tracing your sweet, sweet flavor I literally sucked in your aroma the truth be told your fragrance is embedded in me. I Feel High. I Feel Consumed. I Fell Confused.
I know this two will fade away just like everything has in my life, so why should I care, embrace, acknowledge, prepare or open myself up to it?
Suddenly the lights went out. I'm shook, turned on, CONFUSED and concerned because without a light how will I see?
INSTANTLY The surface of her skin slowly pressed against me, the words she whispered in my ear caused me to giggle when you whispered she had me, so the CONFUSION should end here. I must've of let out a sigh that somehow shook my soul and allowed the weariness, hurt, shock, fear and confusment to disappear. She pulled my face to her and kissed me so deep, her eyes were filled with love and streaming tears. "No, more ruining baby, no more stunting baby, Our love is real is there's no CONFUSION in that. Our love is one that's tender so lets make it soft, sweet and loving everyday. Let's show others everyday that it's alright to be CONFUSED just never be CONFUSED by tenderness.
Let GO! Let LOVE!
Precious